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Written By: Michael D. McClellan |

West Virginia’s sweetheart may have moved to Nashville way back in 1978, but her love of the Mountain State runs deep, her connection to it unbreakable, the memories of it fueling some of her most personal work. Her life leading up to that point was dotted with prescient moments suggesting a wildly successful career ahead, even if stardom seemed like a long shot at the time. Kathy Mattea knew that going in. Musicians crash and burn in Nashville every day. Some cling to their dreams by fronting mediocre honky-tonk bands, holding down day jobs while churning through weepy sets of country-music standards on the weekends. Others become studio musicians, a lucky few earning a living doing what they love, some occasionally going on tour, their careers spent in the shadow of stardom. Rarer still are the ones who break through to become stars themselves. Those that do are as scarce as hen’s teeth. Kathy Mattea knew all of that the day she pulled out of her parent’s driveway in Cross Lanes.

“My mom didn’t want me to go,” Mattea says. “She didn’t see a future in it. She wanted me to stay in school and get my degree.”

Mattea left home with her gut and her guitar and the knowledge that she might never sign with a major label, that she might never hear herself on the radio, that she might never score a hit song. That was the chance she was willing to take. She was never in it for the money, never driven by the fame. She simply had to know. Fast-forward: The back-to-back CMA Female Vocalist of the Year honors, the two Grammys, and four No. 1 hit singles are the byproduct of heeding the call, of treating her guitar like a divining rod and following the vibrations all the way to Music City, U.S.A. Accolades aren’t why she rolled the dice. Stardom and validation are two different things. Kathy Mattea was birthed into this world to perform, and while she instinctively knew her talent was real, she needed Nashville to prove herself right.

Kathy Mattea

“Nashville was my dream. It got to the point where it was now or never. If I didn’t go, then I’d spend the rest of my life wondering, ‘What if?’ I didn’t want to have that rolling around in the back of my mind.”

The West Virginia University dropout didn’t arrive with the luxury of built-in connections to country music’s elite – she hadn’t been discovered at a trade show when she was 11, the way that Barbara Mandrell had been discovered by Chet Adkins, nor was she related to a Nashville superstar, as was the case with Crystal Gale, whose sister was the legendary Loretta Lynn. Mattea simply showed up and took a job as a tour guide at the Country Music Hall of Fame.

“Like everybody else, I had to pay the bills,” she says. “It was all part of the journey.”

Mattea had always been allergic to bullshit, which meant that she’d never bullshit herself. She was ambitious, yes, but she also had common sense. There were no guarantees. She gave herself a year to make something happen. If she failed, then she would beat a path back to Morgantown.

“School was the fallback plan. I was going to pour everything into country music first, because I couldn’t imagine a career doing anything else.”

The West Virginia that Kathy Mattea grew up in was blue collar, pro-union, and heavily reliant on coal. There was an underdog mentality that permeated the state, one that went back generations. It’s a mentality that still exists today. I know because, like Kathy Mattea, I am a West Virginian. Since the 35th state was formed, we’ve largely let outsiders, folks who don’t know Charleston from Charles Town, define us. Their rube jokes and unrelenting focus on the state’s most impoverished and uneducated has somehow trumped its knee-buckling beauty, neighborly people, and singular history.

Kathy Mattea grew up the antithesis of West Virginia’s hillbilly stereotype – middle class, cultured, whip-smart – and yet she’s endured the slights her whole life. There’s a defensiveness that bounds West Virginians together, and Mattea is no exception to the rule. She’s proud of her state. That’s one reason she’s been a longtime supporter of Mountain Stage.

“It’s part of my DNA at this point,” Mattea says with the laugh. “It’s like a second home.”

Conceived by Larry Groce in 1983, Mountain Stage is a two-hour radio show produced by West Virginia Public Broadcasting and distributed worldwide by National Public Radio. In 1989, when R.E.M. was one of the biggest bands on the planet, it only gave three performances to promote its Out of Time LP, and one of those was on Mountain Stage. (Saturday Night Live and MTV Unplugged being the other two.) That’s right. Michael Stipe, Peter Buck & Co. rolled into Charleston and performed on Mountain Stage when it was refusing to play anywhere else.

Kathy Mattea performs live on Mountain Stage.

Mountain Stage is a great advertisement for our state,” Mattea says. “Larry is such an ambassador. I’ve been connected to the show for a long time, and I’m very proud of that relationship.”

Mattea and Mountain Stage go hand-in-hand like coal mining and West Virginia, topics that are never far from her mind. She knows full well the labor strife and economic struggles of her home state, including some of its most infamous moments.

“Who can grow up in the southern part of the state and not know about Matewan?” she asks rhetorically. “What happened there was so sensational that they eventually made a movie about it. The Matewan Chief of Police was a man named Sid Hatfield, whose family was one-half of the Hatfield-McCoy feud. It was a pretty big deal.”

The Matewan Massacre, on May 19, 1920, had all the elements of a high-noon showdown: On one side, the heroes, a pro-union sheriff and mayor; on the other, the dastardly henchmen of the Baldwin-Felts Detective Agency. Within 15 minutes, ten people were dead – seven detectives, two miners and the mayor. Three months later, the conflict in the West Virginia coal town had escalated to the point where martial law was declared and federal troops had to intervene.

The granddaughter of two West Virginia miners, Mattea grew up hearing her family’s own stories; of strikes, of picket lines, of miners being paid in scrip that could only be exchanged in the company stores owned by the employers. Years later, horrified by the 2006 explosion and collapse at the Sago mine that left 12 miners dead, she produced one of her most ambitious albums, the 2008 masterpiece, Coal.

“That album really changed my life in a lot of ways,” Mattea says. “There was so much I didn’t know until I started asking questions. Trust me, I paid attention to the retelling of those family stories that I might not have listened to when I was younger.”

The reception for Coal was resounding, both critically and personally. It garnered Mattea a Grammy nomination for Best Traditional Folk Album.

“I had to get out of the way and let the songs tell the story. Once I did that, everything flowed.”

Kathy Mattea has always been smart.

From a young age, her mind operated on a different level than the other kids in her school. She comprehended words more quickly, and her mathematical problem solving was well ahead of others her age. In fact, she was double-promoted in an effort to keep her engaged. As she got older, Mattea found it harder to find things in common with the other kids. It wasn’t until she discovered music that she felt like she belonged.

“The music kids became my tribe,” Mattea says.

Her guitar became the great equalizer, the thing that stripped away all of the insecurities and bridged the gap between a young Kathy Mattea and everyone else. She also got into local theatre, another place that felt like home. Standing onstage, free from the pressure of having to hold a conversation about something she had no interest in, Mattea could let her guard down and simply be herself.

“It was liberating. I felt at home on a stage. I guess that’s one reason I was so driven to pursue music.”

Mattea enrolled at WVU as a physics, chemistry, and engineering major, but by then music was her world. She joined a bluegrass band, wrote some songs, recorded some demos, and dreamed of making it big in Nashville. When the co-writer in the band decided to make that leap, Mattea followed suit, dropping out of school against her parent’s wishes.

Kathy Mattea

“To them, I was giving up a sure thing,” Mattea says. “I was sacrificing my future to take a shot at something that, in their minds, wasn’t going to work out. There were more than a few conversations over that decision.”

Mattea made the move anyway. Got that job as a tour guide. Cut demos with her writing partner. Eventually, it was that partner, Mickey, who grew disenchanted with the whole Nashville scene and went back to school.

Mattea stuck it out.

“Mickey leaving meant that I was on my own in every way,” she says. “It forced me to commit on a whole other level.”

Mattea started having voice problems, so she quit giving tours and took a desk job with an insurance company. Eventually, a record producer named Bryon Hill discovered her, and Mercury Records signed her to a contract. On March 22, 1984, her self-titled debut album was released. Five years to the day after Mattea rolled into town with a mattress strapped to the top of her car, she released her first record.

“It was a huge deal,” Mattea says. Street Talk eventually reached No. 25 on the Hot Country Songs charts. “It was an unbelievable feeling to turn on the radio and hear my song being played.”

Her second album, From My Heart, was released in 1985. It produced the chart singles It’s Your Reputation Talkin’, He Won’t Give In, and Heart of the Country, which peaked at numbers 34, 22, and 46, respectively.

Kathy Mattea – Photo Courtesy James Minchin

“It was exciting and frustrating at the same time,” Mattea says. “I had a record deal, I was getting air play, but I didn’t have that hit song to get over the hump.”

That was about to change.

Mattea’s third album, 1986’s Walk the Way the Wind Blows, was a critical and commercial breakthrough. Four singles were released from the album, and all for reached the top 10 of the country music charts between 1986 and 1987: Love at the Five and Dime, Walk the Way the Wind Blows, You’re the Power, and Train of Memories. One of the songs – Walk the Way the Wind Blows – earned Mattea her first Grammy nomination, for Best Female Country Vocal Performance.

“The Grammy nomination was flattering, and a great, great honor,” she says. “More than anything, it helped to validate everything about my decision to pursue a music career in the first place. I felt like I belonged.”

On the heels of that Grammy nom came Mattea’s fourth album, Untasted Honey, and with it, her first No. 1 single, Goin’ Gone. The follow-up single, Eighteen Wheels and a Dozen Roses, which is about a truck driver named Charlie who is retiring after thirty years to spend more time with his wife, also climbed to No. 1. Untold Stories and Life as We Knew It were also released from the album, with both reaching the No. 4 position on the country charts. Eighteen Wheels and a Dozen Roses earned Mattea multiple awards, including the 1988 Academy of Country Music Awards’ Single of the Year and Song of the Year.

Kathy Mattea had not only gotten over the hump, she was suddenly a bona fide country music star.

“An overnight success years in the making,” she says with a laugh. “I was suddenly famous, and taking that big ride. You always imagine what that might be like, but then it happens and you’re trying to figure things out on the fly. It was a crazy time.”

Kathy Mattea

Something even more profound happened in Mattea’s life around this time: On February 14, 1988, she married songwriter Jon Vezner. The pair had met when Mattea was living upstairs at Wrensong, Vezner’s publisher at the time. He’d see her in the hallway on occasion. One morning Mattea’s car battery was dead, so Vezner played the role of good Samaritan and jumped her. The two have been together ever since.

In 1989, Mattea released her fifth album, Willow in the Wind. The first two singles, Come from the Heart and Burnin’ Old Memories, also topped the country charts, but it was Vezner’s incredibly personal, deeply poignant Where’ve You Been that earned Mattea her first Grammy Award, this for Best Female Country Performance. Where’ve You Been also took home the 1989 Academy of Country Music Awards’ Song of the Year honors. A red-hot Kathy Mattea also won the first of back-to-back CMA Female Vocalist of the Year awards. A year later, her compilation album, A Collection of Hits, was certified platinum. The brainy, ballsy girl from Cross Lanes had conquered the country music world.

“That period in my life was a whirlwind. Things happen so fast, and everything is so surreal. You know it’s not going to last forever. You try your best to enjoy the ride.”

Her 1991 album, Time Passes By, proved to be Mattea’s most-daring, least-commercial work, a collection of songs that celebrates her many musical influences, from bluegrass of West Virginia to folk music of Scotland, where she traveled to record with heralded Scottish singer/songwriter Dougie MacLean. Coming off the immense success of the previous two years, Mattea easily could have played it safe and stayed within Nashville’s accepted parameters. By cutting Time Passes By, she made a bold statement about refusing to stagnate, and proved she was willing to make the ultimate career gamble – that the same country establishment that embraced her might just as quickly discard her.

“I’m very proud of that album,” Mattea says, reflecting on the critical reception it received. “There was a real honesty about Dougie’s music that inspired me. I didn’t worry about making a commercial album, or trying to duplicate an album that I’d already made.”

Despite the lack of radio-ready songs, Time Passes By became her third gold album. Her next two albums, Lonesome Standard Time (1992), and Walking Away a Winner (1994) were also certified RIAA gold.

“It was a good run. Looking back now, I think I appreciate it more than when I was actually charting and winning awards. Time has a way of changing perspective.”

Kathy Mattea has battled through her share of adversity since that rocket ship ride to the pinnacle of her profession. In June, 1992, Mattea was required to undergo surgery on her vocal cords. She bounced back two years later with her first Christmas album, Good News, which won the Grammy Award for Best Southern, Country or Bluegrass Gospel Album. The joy was short-lived; Mattea frequently found herself at odds with her mother, who seemed inexplicably hellbent on making her life miserable. Little did realize the darkness slowly unfolding.

“My mom, at the height of my career, told me I’d changed, and basically did everything but disown me,” Mattea says. “It wasn’t a public thing. There was so much anger when I would come home to visit. It turns out that it was an early sign of Alzheimer’s. It cut me to my knees, but I just kept going. I was working harder than ever, and I wasn’t taking care of myself. My voice paid the price.”

Mattea’s majestic voice – a rich, husky alto/mezzo-soprano with great depth, range and shading – betrayed her. She continued to make records, but Nashville, much like her voice, had also started to change. As the ‘90s wound down, so did Mattea’s commercial clout.

“There was a time when I wondered what might have been, but I quickly let that go,” she says. “I’ve said that the circumstances of your life are just window dressing. It’s really what you do with them that matters. I think that’s how we really find ourselves.”

Kathy Mattea

Mattea’s albums continued to be critically acclaimed, including 2000’s The Innocent Years, made at a time she was facing the declining health of her father, a supervisor at Monsanto Company. His passing from cancer in 2003 was another blow.

“Life can be cruel,” she says. “I spent a lot of time thinking about what’s important to me, which in turn shaped that album.”

In 2008, Mattea released Coal, followed by 2012’s Calling Me Home, but by then her voice had started to change. Six years would pass before the release of 2018’s Pretty Bird. She was on the verge of 60, and at a crossroads. Still allergic to bullshit, Mattea kept things real with herself.

“I was out on the road playing, and I’d go up for a note that I know how to hit, but it wouldn’t come out. There were some ugly cry days in my living room, because I was so frustrated. I didn’t want to leave music – trust me, I wasn’t ready to leave – but I wasn’t going to do it halfway.”

With the support of her longtime guitarist, Bill Cooley, and the help of a vocal coach, Mattea was slowly able to climb out of the darkness. Tony Bennett even offered advice. On Pretty Bird, Mattea’s new range and maturity is on full display. She sings the Hazel Dickens title song a cappella, with a kind of deep richness only time can provide.

“My voice is different than it was before, but I’ve learned that that’s not necessarily a bad thing,” she says. “Being on the other side feels great.”

Turns out Kathy Mattea had it wrong all along.

Yes, she would still do it all over again, because she would still need to know. And no, she wouldn’t change a thing, not one iota, not with the way her career has played out. She’s an icon now, and a country music legend, all thanks to a whole lotta talent and a little bit of luck. She’s sold a boatload of records. She’s played countless shows. She has money in the bank and fans worldwide, both blessings in their own way, but those are simply the byproducts of her ambition. She was never in it for the fortune, never in it for the fame. That was true back then. It’s still true today. Sure, Kathy Mattea became a star, but she could’ve lived with her own crash-and-burn, the way it has for so many others who’ve rolled into Nashville with a guitar stashed in the trunk of a car and a mattress strapped to the roof. Had Kathy Mattea failed, so what? She would have gone back to school. She might have become an engineer, or a chemist, or a theoretical physicist, even. Maybe even gotten a job at Monsanto, following in her father’s footsteps. That would have been fine, too. A roll of the dice, this thing called life. Bottom line, she had to try. She needed to know.

How, exactly, did Kathy Mattea get it wrong?

Knowing is one thing. Realization is another. Prescient moments and gut instinct led her to Nashville, but the real joy is always in the journey, not the destination. It’s about the Bill Cooleys, the Larry Groces, the Tim O’Briens. It’s about failing and trying again, falling and getting back up. Kathy Mattea knows this now. The 19-year-old using her guitar as a divining rod? There was still so much in her life yet to unfurl. You have to experience life to fully appreciate the trick of time, to understand that you’re not going to live forever, and that life – whether you’re a country music superstar or a chemistry teacher at George Washington High School – is all about the little moments along the way, and the memories you make. There has been plenty of laughter in Kathy Mattea’s life, some tears and sadness, too.

She climbed the mountain because she needed to know.

She loves the mountains because they’re who she is.

For Kathy Mattea, West Virginia will always be home.

The year 2020 has been like no other. Take me back to the beginning of the COVID pandemic.

We live in uncertain times because of COVID, but the initial outbreak was surreal. In March and April, the numbers were still going up. Tennessee was trying to reopen, but most of the densely populated counties were still closed. It was very hard on everyone, and still is, like it has been everywhere. One of my dear friends runs the mall near where I live, and she had to work at the mall the next county over because she couldn’t open. Nashville comprises both the city and the county because they’re the same jurisdiction, and the mayor was on the television providing daily updates and reminding everyone to hunker down.


The pandemic has hit the economy hard, the arts especially so.

I don’t think it’s going to be ‘normal’ here in Nashville for a long time. We’re slowly getting back to performing again, with a few dates in Nashville in front a very small number of people, socially distanced, and we’ve booked dates in 2021 that we hope we can keep. We’ll see. When everything shut down in March, all of my guys would check in with each other. As the weather got warmer, we were able to sit outside, socially distanced, and have some rehearsals and jams sessions. We did do one “concert” early on, in an old house that a friend had converted into a business. It had been completely sterilized, and nobody had been in there for weeks. The four of us got together, six feet apart, and did a Facebook Live concert. That felt great.

Kathy Mattea

What else have you been into since the outbreak of COVID-19?

Interestingly, we moved a few days before this all started, after 30 years in our old house. So, there hasn’t been a lack of stuff to do. The house we moved from was an older, historic house located just outside of the historic overlay, so the gentrification of that neighborhood was heartbreaking, and part of why we moved. It was quite a journey – lots of moving and cleaning and talking to the neighbors and saying goodbye. It was a rollercoaster but thankfully we’ve gotten settled into our new home.


Coal mining is such an indelible part of West Virginia. What was your story with coal?

A lot of the mines had shut down and the chemical industry had moved into the Kanawha Valley by the time my dad got out of the mines, but coal was still a big part of our family’s history. My dad grew up in Smithers, and his dad mined at Cannelton Coal. My mom grew up in Bancroft in Putnam County, and her dad mined at Plymouth Hollow. So, both of them grew up in little coal mining towns. Their fathers both had their own houses, which was a source of great pride. I heard all of their stories growing up, my mom and my dad telling me what it was like. I will forever remember the little vignettes that they told me.


You grew up in Cross Lanes, West Virginia.

We had a great neighborhood. Everybody knew everybody, and there were kids everywhere. There was a subdivision up the hill behind us, and our house was halfway between the grade school and this subdivision, so everybody would walk through our yard on the way home from school. It got to the point that my dad and the guy behind us got together and built some steps up the side of the hill, so the kids could get home a little easier. There were so many good times. We had a garden in the backyard. We would play kickball in the evenings, and we would go out after school and run around the neighborhood playing games – cops and robbers during the day, and flashlight tag at night. It was small town America. We had a big family, and we would all get together and have cookouts in the summertime. It was a great way to grow up.

Kathy Mattea

What are some of your earliest childhood memories?

I was the surprise kid who came along nine years after the youngest of my two brothers, which meant that I wasn’t supposed to be around, so I changed all the plans for everybody [laughs]. When I was born it became very clear, very quick, that I was real smart. I learned the alphabet not in order, but as I saw the letters in front of me. In fact, the big family joke is that my first word was “Westinghouse” because I would sit in the high chair in our kitchen, where we had a Westinghouse stove, and I’d point and ask what the letters were. I just had this insatiable desire to know. To keep me out of their hair while they were doing homework, my brothers would give me problems to solve and words to study. By the time I got into first grade, I could read and I could do math. The teachers discovered this pretty quickly. After a month in the first grade, they did all this testing and decided to move me to second grade. Actually, I was the last person to be double-promoted in Kanawha County.


Could you sense that you were academically ahead of other kids your age?

I had this fire, really, from the time I was born, to just engage with the world. I was also kind of a misfit in school, because my brain was much quicker than all of the other kids the same age. Emotionally, I was probably a little bit behind for my age. The teachers loved me, but I could not fit in with the other kids. I couldn’t figure it out socially. It was like they all knew some secret code, or had the password, or knew the cool phrase required to be accepted, but I’d somehow been left out when that information was shared. I just couldn’t connect with the other kids.


Did you ever find your clique?

I went away to Girl Scout camp in Greenbrier County during the summer between fifth-and-sixth grade, and I discovered that if you had a guitar, then everybody gathered around and wanted to sing. You didn’t have to say anything, you didn’t have to know how to be cool, and you didn’t have to worry about fitting in. People just came to you. I became a person possessed. My parents got me a guitar that summer for my birthday – actually, they rented me a guitar from a music store because they weren’t convinced that I’d stick with it – and I started taking lessons. Once they saw how obsessed I was, they got me one for Christmas. Music was all that I cared about after that. I wound up joining the choir, as well as the junior high and high school bands. The music kids became my tribe.


Were you drawn to any other creative pursuits in high school?

I remember the year when all of the peeps in my class were turning 16, and everyone was rushing to get their driver’s licenses so that they could all get summer jobs. My mom was like, “Kathy’s going to be the only one in her circle of friends that doesn’t do this.” And while she never said it, I’m sure that she thought, “I’m going to have to be home with her all summer, so I’ve got to find something for her to do.” Somewhere around that time she saw an audition for a summer show at George Washington High School, and it was being put on by the guys who were very involved with the Charleston Light Opera Guild. I went and auditioned, and dang if I didn’t make it. It was a 10-person cast, and we did Godspell that summer. I became a theatre rat.

Kathy Mattea

Please tell me about your first-ever solo performance, for a local TV show in the 10th grade. You sang a version of John Denver’s Gospel Changes.

I had these friends in high school who were a couple of years ahead of me – John Thompson and Jim Snyder, who I still keep in touch with – and they had been playing music together for years. They were involved in this little variety show on cable television. This was back when cable TV was in its fledgling stage. It was almost what you might consider to be community access television now. Anyway, they were looking for content to perform and they asked me to appear. The idea was to play and sing, and so I went to this tiny studio and did it live on the air that afternoon. I’d be surprised if 20 people saw it, but when I got back to my house in Cross Lanes the phone rang. There was a woman on the other end. She wouldn’t tell me her name, but she said that she saw me and thought that I was really, really good. She explained that she had gone into the music business a long time ago, but that it had chewed her up and spit her out. She told me that I had something special. I was on the phone with her for about 45 minutes, and when I hung up, my mother and I just looked at each other and our jaws hit the floor. That kind of feedback became a theme: By the time I’d decided to quit college and move to Nashville, several things like that had happened to me, so I finally thought to myself, “Okay, you’ve got something that people are connecting with.” That’s when I made the decision to make the move.


You went to college at West Virginia University. Did you have a music career on your mind when you got there?

By the time I’d gotten into college, I had been playing guitar anywhere that I could. There was a folk group in my church and I did that. There was all of the community theater stuff, and I did that. There were the school plays and musicals at Nitro High School, and I did all of that stuff. Then I go to college and find these guys who were as eaten up about music as I was, and I started hanging out with them.  We started writing songs and jamming. That’s when I realized that I could do the math and science with no problem – I was a physics and chemistry major – but I felt different when I did music. And I was just young enough that I thought, “What would happen if I built my life around music? What if I went that route, instead of doing this thing that I’m good at but don’t care about?” That’s what launched me. And then, when I had the chance to go to Nashville, I thought to myself, “I don’t care if you make it or not, I just want to know that you tried.” That way I could have that monkey off my back, and I wouldn’t have to spend the rest of my life wondering what might have been.

Dan Seals, left, and Kathy Mattea present the Vocal Group of the Year award during the 21st annual CMA Awards show at the Grand Ole Opry House on Oct. 12, 1987.
P. Casey Daley / The Tennessean

What was college life like for Kathy Mattea?

We put together a band while I was at WVU. It was a mix of folk and bluegrass. We wrote some songs. We made some demos and sent them off to the record companies, ceremoniously dropping them into the mailbox on High Street in Morgantown. We received so many rejection letters, most of them impersonal, but we did get a couple that had handwritten notes on the bottom. The feedback was very encouraging. I thought, “Wow. I don’t know if we’re good enough, but someone thinks something. We’ve got somebody’s attention.”

Then came the end of my sophomore year. Mickey, my main co-writer in the group, was graduating. Like me, he was really serious about music, and he decided that he was going to move to Nashville. He went down there during spring break, so I went with him and helped him scope the place out. He moved after the summer. I got a little job selling cheese at the Hickory Farms in the Mountaineer Mall.


I just can’t picture Kathy Mattea, two-time Grammy Award winner, selling cheese at a mall.

It was the mid-1970s, and people just weren’t paying top dollar for designer cheese [laughs]. The manager was very into it, and was trying to make that store best store in the region – the most sales, that sort of thing – so there was a lot of pressure. Try as I could, I just could not make cheese the center point of my life. So, the manager called and asked me to come in. I thought she was going to give me another pep talk about selling cheese. Well, I walked in and she fired me. She said, “We don’t think you are Hickory Farms material.”

I went back to the house where I lived and I got really depressed. Part of me was fine with being fired because I didn’t care about the job, but I had never, ever had anybody say that they didn’t want me or that I didn’t measure up. My roommates would go to work every day and I would just sit around the house and feel sorry for myself. I didn’t want to be doing physics and chemistry for the rest of my life. Mickey was leaving. The band was breaking up. I had a steady boyfriend for the past year, but things weren’t going well and we were on the rocks. I was in a really dark place heading into that next semester.

Kathy Mattea is having fun as she plays for fans attending the PolyGram/Mercury Records show during Fan Fair at the Tennessee State Fairgrounds on June 9, 1987.

You dropped out of college and moved to Nashville.

I was just sitting there in despair, feeling like I was in a stuck place, when this voice came into my head that said, “If you look at this like a crisis, it will be a crisis. If you look at this like an opportunity, it will be an opportunity.” That’s when it occurred to me that I was a year younger than everybody in my class. That meant that I had a year to play with. I could go to Nashville for a year, and if it didn’t work out, then I could come back and I’d be the same age as everybody in all of my classes. More importantly, I’d have answered this nagging question about a music career, and then I could figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I suddenly got really excited. I picked up the phone and called home. I said, “Mom…Dad…school has been great, and thanks so much, but guess what? I’m going to quit, and I’m going to move to Nashville with a boy and become a songwriter.”


How did that go over with your parents?

We’re talking about Depression Era kids that grew up in coal towns, so they were not thrilled at all. The silence on the other end of the phone was deafening. I moved back to Cross Lanes before I moved to Nashville, and I spent about three weeks talking to them. They were all about the reasons they didn’t want me to do it, and I was full of answers as to why I should. They were like, “Just get your degree.” I was like, “If I stay here and get my degree, then I’ll never go because I won’t go by myself. Nashville’s too big.” Eventually, they accepted my decision, and I moved to Nashville. Mickey and I plunged right in. We played Writer’s Nights, took our tapes around, and got to know some people…but after less than a year my writing partner, said, “This isn’t for me. I want to go home. I want to go back to school.” He is now a dentist in Richmond, Virginia, and I’ve had this crazy life in Nashville.


Did you ever think that you might not succeed in Nashville?

When Mickey left, my first instinct was to go back to Cross Lanes and start getting ready for school, but then a terrible feeling came into the pit of my stomach. I thought, “If you leave because he left, then you only came because he came.” I’d wanted to do this for a very long time. Nashville was my dream. My whole life was made up of these little moments where people were like, “Kathy, you have something.”

Kathy Mattea

It sounds like an enormous internal conflict.

Very much so. On one hand, it was scary because he had kind of run the show. He had done all of the research and made all of the appointments, and I was kind of his sidekick. Yet, when we would take our tapes around and play them for publishers, people would say, “Who is singing this? Is that you?” That buoyed me. But Nashville was about 500,000 people at the time, which seemed too big for me to make it on my own. Those were the moments when I’d panic and think about heading back to West Virginia. Then I would think about driving home and pulling up into the driveway, where my parents would be waiting to say, “We knew you would be back.” Then I would panic about that. Nothing felt right. I somehow convinced myself not to make a snap decision. Instead of packing up and running back home, I’d give it a month and see how I felt about it then.


How did Nashville win out?

I had started losing my voice from giving tours at the Country Music Hall of Fame, so I quit that job and got a desk job with an insurance company. The office was about a mile from my house, which was about a 20-minute walk, so I decided that I was going to walk to work and back every day. That’s what I did. As I walked, I would imagine staying in Nashville, living here on my own, and trying to find my way. Then, when I couldn’t not bear those thoughts anymore, I would flip it around and imagine going home. I’d visualize going back to school. I’d see myself moving back to Morgantown, signing up for classes, and pursuing those degrees in physics and chemistry. I would do this back-and-forth, day after day, all the way to work and all the way back home.

Then, after about three weeks of this struggle, something happened. I stopped dead in my tracks one morning on the way to work, and I said, “Kathy, you can do anything for a year. But if you stay, give it all you’ve got.” That’s when it hit me – I hadn’t really laid it all on the line. I hadn’t tried with every fiber of my being. I realized in that moment that if I really gave it everything I had for a year and failed, then I could live with the results. My whole definition of success shifted in that moment. I was no longer scared of failure. I would have peace because I wouldn’t have to wonder for the rest of my life.


It turned out to be the right decision. In 1984, you released your first album. Please tell me about landing your first record deal.

I got a call from a record company who had heard my tapes and wanted to meet with me. By then I knew enough to know that this was a good thing. I had sessions scheduled that day and was going to be singing in the studio, so they asked me to come in before the sessions. The record company – Mercury Records – was a block away from the studio on Music Row, so I stopped on my way in. When I walked in the door, the receptionist said, “Jessie from Warner Brothers called, and she wants you to call her right away.” Warner Brothers happened to be another record label that had been talking to me, and they somehow knew about this appointment with Mercury – that’s how small of a town Nashville was at that time. So, I called the A&R person at Warner Brothers and she said, “Whatever you do, you need to listen to Warner Brothers before you make your decision.”

I went ahead and had the meeting with the head of Mercury, who said that they wanted to sign me. Then, at the end of the day, the A&R person from Warner Brothers picked me up and took me for an audience with Jimmy Bowen, who was the head of that label. He wanted to know what kind of deal Mercury offered. I told him that there was a producer on staff, that I could have independent production, and that I could choose what I wanted to produce. He said, “You should take the deal. We just merged with another label, and I have to drop a bunch of artists. If they are giving you outside production, that’s a good deal for you right now. You should take it.” Jimmy Bowen was looking out for me. He had been talking to me for a while, but he knew he couldn’t sign me. He wanted to make sure that I didn’t make a mistake.

Kathy Mattea

How did you celebrate?

I went and played a benefit that night and I got to say, “I got a record deal today!” That was truly a Cinderella day for me. I was going to get my shot.


Where were you the first time you heard yourself on the radio?

I knew that WFAM AM in Nashville was playing my first single. I was in my car on Music Row, a block from where I lived, and I had come to a stop at a stoplight. It was a one-way road, and there was a guy in a van on my right. My song came on the radio…and I rolled down all of the windows and cranked it up as loud as I could. The guy looked at me, and I looked at him, and then I pointed to the radio and screamed, “That’s me! That’s me on the radio!” The guy just looks at me, like, “Yeah, sure.” And then the light turned green and he just pulled out.


In late 1987 you had your first Number One hit. Where were you when you learned that Goin’ Gone was at the top of the charts?

I don’t remember where I was, but we did have a Number One party for the song. That was a thing you did back then. They still do it on Music Row today, but it’s become such a huge production. There are huge banners, big parties, and lots and lots of people. Back when Goin’ Gone reached Number One, you didn’t have all of that pomp and circumstance. We just had a little party in the studio where the song was recorded – a nondescript, old house on Music Row that my producer, Allen Reynolds, owned. Garth Brooks owns it today; ironically, Allen is probably most famous for producing Garth. Anyway, we got all the writers together, along with the people who played on that record, and we celebrated this great collaboration. There were like 10 people there. We ate cake, drank some beer, and went home.


That sounds pretty low-key for someone who just landed her first Number One hit.

I have two memories from that Number One party that are great. The first one is of the song playing in the studio control room. There’s a big outside gathering area just outside of the studio, and we had all congregated there to listen to the song. What I didn’t realize was that they had made a spoof of the song. They had added four tracks to the end of it, including a ukulele – they knew that I hated the ukulele [laughs]. I’d looked at Allen Reynolds when I started working there and I was like, “I love you pal, and I know you like the ukulele, but you’re not putting the ukulele on any of my records.” So, that was the joke – they had made this whole outro with the ukulele. At one point, it sounded like there was a big lighthouse in the harbor because there was a long and loud “honk, honk.” We all had a big laugh about it.

The other memory that I have of that day came at the end of the party. My soon-to-be husband [Jon Vezner] was there, and as everyone was trickling out, he said to Allen and me, “I want to play you something.” So, we went upstairs to Allen’s listening room, and Jon played a demo of a song he’d been working on. That song was, Where’ve You Been. I knew the story. I knew that his grandmother had said those words. It was stunning to hear it told like that. I just looked at him like, “Oh my God, you wrote this in a song.” It was such a powerful moment.

Kathy Mattea

Where’ve You Been won the Grammy Award for Best Country Song in 1990. Can you share the backstory?

Jon had told me that story while we were dating. There’s this moment in a relationship when you get a little more serious and you start to tell each other the really important things. This was one of those times. Jon’s grandmother had gotten sick, gone to the hospital, and had fallen and broken her hip, so she had been in there for a long time. She started forgetting people’s names, and finally she wouldn’t eat, and she wouldn’t talk…she was just waiting to die. Jon wheeled his grandfather into the room that day and pulled him around the bed beside her. She looked her husband and said – not in a fragile voice, but in a tone that was kind of pissed off [laughs] – “Where’ve you been?” It was the last thing she ever said. She died a couple of weeks later. She didn’t speak anymore. She had been in a kind of dementia fog, but on that day, in that moment, her husband pulled her back to reality. Jon told me that story one night, and he just burst into tears.


That must have been an incredibly hard song for Jon to write.

 Jon was in a writing session with Don Henry, the co-writer on that song, and together they were able to bring it to life. Jon said that he probably wouldn’t have been able to write it without Don, that he couldn’t have gone there without another writer sort of holding that space with him. Otherwise, he would have gotten lost in all of the emotion of it.

My mom died of Alzheimer’s years later, so my relationship with that song has really evolved over time. It’s such a cruel disease. There they are…you know them so well…you know all of their mannerisms and their quirky little personality things…and yet, they are not there. It’s really hard to watch someone you love go through something like that.


Did you think it was going to be a huge hit?

When I heard it for the first time, I thought that it was too sad to be a hit song, but word quickly spread around Nashville about how great it was, which is why I love Nashville so much – and why I feel so grateful to have moved here when I was young. Every publisher in Nashville had a cassette copy of that song on their desk. We heard story-after-story of people walking in and them going, “You need to hear this song. I don’t want to have anything to do with this song, but you just need to hear this song.”

So, there was a showcase for writers at the Bluebird Café in Nashville. It was put on by a nonprofit company that no longer exists, and they would do a show once a month at the Bluebird. They would invite people to play, and Jon was one of the writers. I was in the audience that night, and he played that song, and when he was done, there were like 10 seconds of silence…and then the place erupted into applause. People were audibly sobbing all over the room. The whole room went to pieces all at once. I thought, “Oh my God, this song…” I suddenly saw that it didn’t matter if it was sad or not. It needed to be heard. So, I went to Allen and I said, “I’m sorry, I know that we both have to approve this song, and you think it’s too sad, but I have to do it.”

Kathy Mattea

Where You Been climbed into the Top Ten despite the heavy nature of the material.

We recorded it with such great musicians. Edgar Meyer, the great bass player who was a MacArthur Fellow, played on it. His dad was dying, and he came to me and said, “My dad isn’t going to live to hear this on the record. Can I have a copy to play for him, because I will never get to play on anything like this again.” Of course, we gave him a copy.

Another interesting story about that song: That night at the Bluebird, a writer got sick at the last minute and had to cancel, so they put another young writer in his place. That writer was Garth Brooks. Garth had been rejected by every record label in Nashville. There was a guy from Capitol Records in the audience that night, and he signed him on the spot. It was one of those crazy things.


Your third studio album, Walk the Way the Wind Blows, was released in 1986. It had four Top 10 hits and stamped you as a country music superstar.

I made my first record with some producers that didn’t have much experience, and we didn’t have a lot of success – a little bit, but not too much. My second album didn’t hardly do anything either, but I was fortunate to have worked on it with Allen Reynolds. That really helped point me in the right direction, even though I’d yet to make any real noise. Luckily my record company said, “Look, we don’t think you found your stride yet, but we believe in you.” So, they stuck with me, and Walk the Way the Wind Blows became the album that put me over the top.


Love at the Five and Dime became your first Top 10 record.

Mercury had decided that they were going to put out singles, and that they weren’t going to spend money on another album until we gained some traction. The original plan was to go cut two singles, a total of four songs, which meant two A-sides and two B-sides. We actually got five songs out of the session. There was a song that I really liked, but, as luck would have it, a new guy came in and took over the record company, and he really liked this other song. I looked at Allen and I was like, “What do we do? I don’t want to fight the new guy. I don’t want to get off on the wrong foot and get on his bad side.” Allen said, “Just let him put out what he wants to put out, and if it doesn’t hit, then you’ll be able to say, ‘I told you so.’” So, the new guy says that Love at the Five and Dime is my hit. We put it out, and it just floated up the charts like it had a balloon attached to it. It was amazing. I still sing that song every night.


It’s a great song.

I was doing an interview with the literary guy, and he said, “Kathy, that song is an epic story told in three-and-a-half minutes. You experience the entire lifetime of these two people. I had never really thought about it like that. It was written by Nanci Griffith, and told in a way that only Nanci could tell it. As an artist, that song was lighting in a bottle. I tell my audiences that when I sing that song, it’s like putting on your favorite old pair of blue jeans, the pair that’s worn in just the right way and that you know so well.

Kathy Mattea

On April 1, 2008, you released your thirteenth studio album, Coal.

When I went to make this album about coal, I went through all of the songs I could find that had been written about that life, and I listened to them for months. The process started lots of conversations with my family, and all of these little stories started stringing together into a bigger picture. Everything came into clearer focus. My cousin started telling me stories that I hadn’t heard about, like a grandfather who owned a Whipple Store. The Whipple Store was a company store, which was usually the only place in town that the miners could shop. That’s because the miners were paid in “scrip,” which was only redeemable at the company store. I wound up going up there and shooting some pictures for the album cover.

The more research I did, the more I found all of these amazing connections to coal, but the more I also felt that I’d somehow missed out on this part of our family legacy. Then, I was home shooting the album cover and driving around with my manager, and he said, “Kathy, you grew up in the shadow of coal.” And then he pointed to the stacks of the John Amos Power Plant, which is the biggest coal-fired electrical plant east of the Mississippi. That made me think about my brother, who was a dispatcher and who sent coal up and down the Ohio and Kanawha rivers to the plant. Until that moment I hadn’t thought about it like that or made that connection. Mike wasn’t a coal miner, but he was directly involved in the barges that were part of the same chain. I was so close to it that I couldn’t see the forest for the trees.


You’ve had a long musical relationship with a fellow West Virginian, Tim O’Brien.

I met Tim when I did Walk the Way the Wind Blows. His publisher had pitched me that song. We got to know each other and just hit it off, and then he came and played on Untold Stories, which became a big hit. Tim lived in Colorado at the time, and we would visit with him and his wife whenever we played out there. Then he moved to Nashville. He produced my most recent album, Pretty Bird, in 2018, and we’ve remained great friends over the years.

Tim is just a phenomenal musician. He’s such a great player, and so proficient on so many instruments. He’s also a great singer, and so soulful, and sings in so many different styles. He has all these different facets to him, any one of which, if you isolated them, you would say, “He’s one of the best.” I have been a champion of his for a long time. He just makes everybody sound better. That’s what I always say about Tim. I don’t think that there is anyone else that I know who is that good, and that deferential. He will meet anyone exactly where they are musically. He doesn’t have to prove anything to you, he doesn’t have to show you how good he is, he just wants to find a place where your collaboration fits. He meets you where you are. There’s not a lot of ego with Tim, especially relative to how good he is. That is just amazing to me.


Bill Cooley is another talented musician who you’ve played with for a very long time.

This past January marked 30 years that I’ve been playing with Bill. I had this guitar player named John Mock, who went on to play with the Dixie Chicks. John was leaving my band, so I was having auditions. Bill had been playing with Merle Haggard, he’d played with Reba McIntyre, and at the time he was playing with Alan Jackson. I already knew Bill because his wife made all of my clothes. She is this amazing artist, and she did all of this embroidery work and produced custom-designed clothes for me.

Well, Bill came in and auditioned, and he just blew everybody out of the water. Nobody else was even close. I never thought that he would stay this long – and neither did he. We just kept looking at each other over the years, and decided to stay together and keep going. I think I really dug in with him a little before the Coal record. We worked out all of those arrangements together – Bill is a brilliant arranger – and he has been sort of my musical guru. He’s one of my tent poles, I guess you could say. I bounce everything off of him.


As a native West Virginian, you’re very involved with Mountain Stage.

Prior to COVID, I’d been guest-hosting Mountain Stage once-a-month for the past year. In fact, I woke up at five this morning with the thought that I had to host Mountain Stage today and hadn’t done my homework. Let me tell you, there was a moment of true panic [laughs].


Mountain Stage has developed a national reputation. There’s no other show like it.

Mountain Stage is important for lots of reasons – it’s important for West Virginia, it’s important for the artists, and it’s important for the arts in general. I really want them to thrive. It’s such a great tradition. I have been involved with Larry Groce and Mountain Stage since it started, and what a privilege it has been. Stepping into Larry Groce’s shoes is a big job. It’s a lot of work, but he makes it look so easy. I performed on some of the early shows, and in 1986 I was actually a guest on the show they did at the Public Radio Programmers Conference in San Diego. That was a significant step, because that’s when they sort of made the play to go national.


Mountain Stage has been a great showcase for creativity in West Virginia.

I feel like my career arc parallels the same timespan as Mountain Stage, so it has been a real companion and a constant in my life since I started playing music. I have been on the show a bunch of times, and I love those guys. I’m constantly amazed by the vision that it took to come up with that concept and think, “People will drive to West Virginia to be on our show. We’ll show them just what it’s like to be from West Virginia, and we’ll give them that kind of hospitality. They will remember us and they will come back.” Without question, Mountain Stage accomplishes a lot. It’s not only our chance to share West Virginia culture on a national stage, but it’s also a chance to give a forum for a lot of artists who are not straight down the middle but who do very interesting and important work.

Kathy Mattea

Do you think the show helps dispel the West Virginia stereotypes that are out there?

I think that Mountain Stage is a really important showcase for West Virginia, because people who aren’t from there get a feel for the friendly, quirky, community atmosphere that is so much a part of West Virginia culture. It’s our counterbalance to so many of the stereotypes that people hold who have never been there. When people come to West Virginia and they do the show, they are like, “This is great! These people are great!” And then they go back into the world and tell everyone how great the people are, and what West Virginia is really like.


Mountain Stage wouldn’t be here without Larry Groce. The two of you are great friends – I’m sure you’ve shared plenty of laughs through the years.

At Mountain Stage, one of the quirky things they do backstage is that everyone has a tiki – a little good luck charm – at their stations. Paul Flaherty, the production and stage manager, has a little bobble head doll of John Hartford, who was a master of the fiddle and the banjo. There’s a little animal of some type that sits on top of the mixing console. Larry has a rocking chair, a “Fra-Gee-Lay” lamp, which is one of those leg lamps from A Christmas Story, a Dallas Cowboys full-sized, game-worn football helmet. So, I came walking in one day and I was like, “Look guys, I love ya and I love Larry, but can we do something about that Dallas Cowboys football helmet? I live in Nashville, and I’m a Titans fan, and my ch’i will be off if I have to look at that Cowboys helmet all of the time.” Fast forward to the last time we did a live show. Paul had gone somewhere and played one of those claw crane arcade games, the kind where you put the coin in and try to grab the little prize. Well, he saw a miniature Tennessee Titans football helmet, and somehow snagged it on the first try. He gives it to me, and guess what? Now there is a miniature Tennessee Titans football helmet sitting beside Larry’s “Fra-Gee-Lay” lamp, and everything is right with the world [laughs]. They keep telling me that I’ve got to bring in my tiki. I think that Titans helmet will do just fine.


In 2011, you were inducted into the West Virginia Music Hall of Fame. Please take me back.

The cool thing about it is this: Tim O’Brien inducted me, and I inducted Tim. It’s such a sweet thing to get to put into words what you think is special about someone that you love. I got inducted first, so when he presented me you could have knocked me over with a feather. I was really stunned. And so, when it came his time and they ask me to be the presenter, I couldn’t wait to tell the world what was so special about him.

The thing that surprised me most is that I’d never really thought about Hall of Fame kinds-of-things, even though I’d worked as a tour guide at the Country Music Hall of Fame in Nashville. I’d always just gone about my business and did my deal. I was surprised by how completely overflowing I felt at the end of that night. It was a tremendous honor to be inducted. The first time I was there, I’d been asked to help induct Billy Edd Wheeler. It was 2007, and it was the same year that Hazel Dickens was inducted. I just remember thinking how lucky I was to be there to see these amazing artists recognized for their body of work. Just to see them brought into focus like that was very inspiring. If there had been something like that when I was a kid, then I might have turned towards music earlier or in a different way.

Kathy Mattea

Final Question: If you had one piece of advice for the next Kathy Mattea, what would that be?

Two things: First, don’t stop writing songs, no matter what, because I did. When I got to Nashville, I thought that I was far more advanced as a singer than I was as a songwriter. So I invested in my strengths. My manager at the time kept saying, “Kathy, go take voice lessons, invest in your voice, but don’t stop writing. You will never regret it if you don’t stop writing. You always be glad you did.” Looking back, I think that I could have been one of the great songwriters. I think that I gave up on it too soon. That is my one big regret.

The other thing would be to pursue your dream with total commitment. That doesn’t mean it will work out the way you hope. I didn’t know if I’d succeed when I moved to Nashville, or if I’d end up back in school studying physics and chemistry. I just knew that I could look back after giving it my all and be happy with the result. I’m very happy with the way my life has turned out.

Written By: Michael D. McClellan |

Lauren Swickard just saved Christmas.

In a year that has seen Broadway shuttered, Wimbledon cancelled, and the Tokyo Olympics postponed, the last thing any of us needed was a Christmas season without fresh, high-quality, feel-good Christmas content to consume. Swickard, the multihyphenate powerhouse behind A California Christmas, has delivered in a big way, writing, producing, and starring (opposite her husband, General Hospital star Josh Swickard) in a film about a wealthy charmer who poses as a ranch hand to get a hardworking farmer to sell her family’s land before Christmas. The Netflix Original, produced by ESX Entertainment, begins streaming worldwide on December 14.

“Getting this movie made is a dream come true,” Swickard says. “There were so many challenges with COVID-19, but we had a great team. Everyone pulled together, worked hard, and stayed focused in spite of what was going on around us.”

Lauren Swickard and Josh Swickard
A California Christmas

That A California Christmas even made it this far qualifies as a Christmas miracle. In March, when the coronavirus pandemic stopped Hollywood in its tracks, not many in the industry were optimistic that holiday films like A California Christmas would see the light of day. In Swickard’s case, everything broke perfectly: Quarantined, she wrote the script in three weeks, bouncing plot points and dialog off of Josh, who was home during the four-month shutdown at General Hospital. She then pitched the script to Ali Afshar, the head of ESX Entertainment, who was so impressed that the deal was done on the spot. The decision to cast Lauren and Josh as the leads not only guarantied onscreen chemistry (the two had met during the filming of Roped, and were married not long after), it also came with the built-in advantage of the leads having been quarantined together. Finally, Afshar offered up his Petaluma ranch as the film’s primary location; by shooting A California Christmas in an NBA-like “bubble” environment, and with testing and protocols followed to a tee, Netflix was convinced that the project could be completed in time for the holiday season. And just like that, Swickard was able to see her dream come true.

“We had a lot of things go right every step of the way,” Swickard says. “It was a combination of hard work and good luck.”

That Lauren Swickard is the driving force behind A California Christmas comes as no surprise to her inner-circle. Swickard may look the part of a Hollywood starlet, but the disarmingly beautiful actor is a blood-and-guts warrior when it comes to her passion: Writing.

Lauren Swickard

“It’s something I do every day,” Swickard says without missing a beat. “I’ve always wanted to be a writer, and I’m thankful the persistence has paid off. It’s surreal to see a writing credit next to A California Christmas.”

Swickard has written several screenplays, including A California Christmas, and is currently hard at work on writing Casa Grande, a five-episode political drama series picked up by Warner Bros. That award-winning Argentine director Gabriela Tagliavini (How to Break Up With Your Douchebag) has been tapped to direct the series speaks volumes to Swickard’s writing.

Casa Grande is on the fast track,” she says. “The series follows several families in the farmland of Northern California as it navigates universal themes of class, immigration, culture and family. We have a team working very hard ensure that the subject matter is authentic. I’m very excited about how it’s coming together and can’t wait to see it come out.”

Born in Cincinnati, Swickard started out in dance, excelling in ballet to the point that she later enrolled in New York City’s prestigious School of American Ballet. Founded by George Balanchine and the single greatest cultivator of aspiring American ballet dancers, SAB remains close to Swickard’s heart.

Josh Swickard and Lauren Swickard
Photo Courtesy Lauren Swickard

“So many great dancers have passed through the school’s studios,” says Swickard. “Allegra Kent, Darci Kristler, the list goes on and on. I loved my time there.”

An injury changed the trajectory of Swickard’s dance career. After a brief stop at Ohio University (to study journalism, no less), she made the leap into acting. Since then she’s steadily built an impressive acting resume, including roles in Dear White People and Roped. She’s also pulled double-duty, starring in two roles for the Lifetime movie Twisted Twin.

“My most challenging project yet,” she says, smiling. She pauses. “Until A California Christmas. Writing, producing, and acting in it was very rewarding, and I’m very thankful. But wearing so many different hats was also exhausting at times.”

That Swickard dreamed big and worked hard is good news for the rest of us. A California Christmas streams at a time when the world badly needs a healthy dose of holiday cheer.

“It’s been a difficult year,” Swickard says. “Hopefully this movie will help people forget about the pandemic for a couple of hours. Hopefully it will keep them smiling for a long while after that.”

Let’s talk about your latest project, A California Christmas. Without spoiling anything, what can you tell me about the movie?

I like to say that A California Christmas is the classic save-the-ranch story. It’s about a girl, her mom, and her younger sister. I play Callie Burnay, a girl who has a lot on her plate. She’s dealing with a mother who is battling lung cancer, and she also has a little sister that she has to help raise, so she’s basically taking care of her family while keeping up an entire ranch by herself. When it becomes too much, her mom suggests that she hire a ranch hand – which she grudgingly ends up doing. Then we learn about a San Francisco-based shipping company called Van Aston Enterprises, and how it wants to buy a big plot of land to put in a new shipping facility. Because the Burnay Ranch is going under, and is just inches away from foreclosure every month, the company thinks it’s found the perfect target. That’s when they decide to go in and offer the family money to buy the ranch. So, Joseph Van Aston, who is played by my real-life husband, gets sent to Petaluma, California, to convince the owners of the Burnay Ranch to sell their land. He doesn’t know Callie Burnay, and he doesn’t realize how strongly she is against selling – although he will soon find out.


Are conditions ripe for romance?

Very much so! When Joseph Van Aston arrives at the ranch, he spills coffee all over himself and has to change clothes. Callie actually mistakes him for a ranch hand. Joseph, seeing it as a perfect opportunity, decides to play the part so that he can get to know Callie a little bit and see what makes her tick. He doesn’t expect to fall in love. So it’s a false identity, romantic comedy Christmas movie. It’s coming out as a Netflix Original on December 14. We couldn’t have asked for a better home for the film.

Lauren Swickard
Photo Courtesy Lauren Swickard

A California Christmas was made during a global pandemic.

We were fortunate to be one of the first productions up and running. We knew that the rest of Hollywood was watching us to see how it went, but everyone on set was careful to follow all the protocol to the best of our ability. We lost two hours each day due to our precautionary guidelines, and yet we still made our days without missing a beat. It wasn’t surprising, because our team was full of some of the hardest workers I’ve ever met.


What kinds of adjustments did you have to make?

We were something of a guinea pig for Hollywood. We were initially doing the blood tests, the kind where you could prick your finger and get the results back in eight minutes. That meant we could test on the same day that we were to go to the set. Then they came around and said that those tests weren’t valid anymore, so we had to delay production by a week while we worked out a deal with another lab, and arranged for nurses to come on set with the nasal swabs. The cast and crew was on hold at a hotel where we filmed in Sonoma Valley. It was beautiful, but we were also in Petaluma, which is in the middle of nowhere. We were supposed to be there for 2 ½ weeks, but we ended up being there for 34 days.


This may be the new normal in Hollywood for the foreseeable future.

The world has certainly changed. Before the pandemic, I think I took things like in-person meetings and interactions for granted. I was in an acting class that I loved. I was driving from Studio City to Santa Monica to Century City, so I was all over Los Angeles auditioning and meeting with people all the time. In fact, at the time I felt a bit overwhelmed. I was like, “I’ve already driven to two offices today, why can’t I just send a tape to the casting offices instead?” Then once the pandemic hit, everything stopped. Acting classes, auditions, productions…everything was canceled. My husband is on a soap opera, General Hospital, and his show completely shut down. It was pretty scary, because the only way our industry works is by being in close contact with other people. There can be anywhere from 60-to-80 people on set when actors are doing a scene. That’s how many people it takes to make everything work. It was all very hard at first, and very surreal. I’ll never forget, Josh and I love watching American Idol, and then American Idol shut down. The next thing you know, the contestants had to sing from home. The new normal is going to take some getting used to [laughs].

Lauren Swickard
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The preview for A California Christmas looks great! Where did the idea for the movie come from?

When the quarantine first happened, there were a lot of friends on social media who were being productive. They were diving into various health-based activities, and coming up with all kinds of creative, stay-at-home things to stay busy. Because I love to write, I thought, “Oh, I’m going to do a script,” and I started imagining what people would want to watch once the quarantine was over. I thought that the pandemic would surely be over by the holidays, and that a holiday movie would be the perfect way to entertain people. I was wrong about the pandemic, but I still feel that people are ready for a movie like A California Christmas.


This project came together quickly.

I wrote the script in three weeks. It was quite fun, because Josh was home with me while I was writing. It was the first time that I had written a script where I had my husband here to be my guinea pig. We would act out scenes while I was writing, so it was a very different process for me. It was so much fun. As I was creating the characters, my intention was not to perform as an actress in the movie. I only wanted to produce and write. But, as we kept working together, I started getting this idea that maybe I should pitch more than the script and the story. Maybe I should also pitch that Josh and I would be acting together in it as a married couple.


Two-part question: What were some of the challenges that you encountered making this film? And, what did you find the most enjoyable?

The biggest challenge was that we had to deal with the pandemic. That meant that there were a lot of things we had to take into consideration. For example, as a writer I had to write a lot of exterior scenes relative to the number of interior scenes. That’s because it’s not quite safe when there are so many crew members confined to a small space. The union also provided guidelines, so we had to make sure that we followed those as well. When we were location scouting, we had to ensure that interior scenes had two separate entrances, one for the actors and the other for the crew members. Those were just some of the challenges that we had to work around.

I think my most enjoyable and favorite part about making A California Christmas was working with my husband. It was so fun to really be able to play off of each other and use our natural chemistry. We had this great banter, where we would do a scene and I would look at him like, “We’ve got to do something else.” And he did the same thing to me. He’d go, “Oh no, babe. No, no, no,” and I’d be like, “You’re right. Let’s do it again.” It was really special, and something that I had never experienced with another actor before.

Lauren Swickard
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A California Christmas was produced by ESX Entertainment.

ESX Entertainment is run by Ali Afshar, and this company is such a well-oiled machine. They’ve done something like 17 movies over the past three years, many of them in and around Petaluma. Ali is accustomed to working on tight schedules, challenging budgets, and things like that, but I’m sure he’s never made a movie under conditions quite like this. Still, he was determined to make this movie despite the coronavirus restrictions. It was such a great experience. The crew was so kind, and everyone was such a family. There were really no issues on the whole preproduction side. The same with the production side, except for the inconveniences caused by COVID. It ended up working out fantastically well.


You met your husband, actor Josh Swickard, on the set of Roped. Tell me about that.

We auditioned independently and were both offered the film. I was offered the role of Tracy Peterson first, but I was actually filming something else in Atlanta and couldn’t come back to Warner Bros. to do the chemistry read. Chemistry reads are common in movies, and are done with different pairings so that the director can get a feel for chemistry between the leads. In this case it didn’t happen, and Josh was cast as Colton Burtenshaw while I was in Atlanta. So, I didn’t meet Josh until two days before we were supposed to be in Petaluma.


I’m going to guess that the chemistry between the two of you was pretty darned good.

Yes, it was very good! We were on the Warner Bros. lot, where we were having rehearsal with the director. Josh had just returned from the movie ranch – he had to learn how to rope a calf for his role, so he had been training all day, but I didn’t know this. I show up to the lot, and Josh is dirty from head to toe – dirty cowboy boots, dirty jeans, dirty shirt. I immediately started making fun of him because I thought he was coming in character for the directors meeting. I thought, “Wow, you’re really going for this role!” So, that was our first interaction. Things went so well that he got my number underneath the iconic water tower on the Warner Bros. lot. We drive by that water tower all of the time. That was our special little meeting place.

Josh Swickard and Lauren Swickard

Did you start dating during the filming of Roped?

There was definite chemistry between us, but we decided that we weren’t going to act on that chemistry, we were going to have it be movie magic instead. It worked out great because we were so close during filming that we became friends first. I told him that maybe he could take me out on a date after filming had wrapped up. He did, and it was love at first date.


You starred in a lifetime movie called Twisted Twin.  What was that like?

That has to be my most satisfying role thus far in my career as an actress – or, I should say, roles! One twin was as sweet as could be, as sweet as honey, and the other one was just crazy evil. I actually loved playing the evil twin the most [laughs].


You’re outstanding in both roles.

Thank you! The director’s name is Jeff Hare. He was really great to work with, because he went out of his way to make me feel like it was my movie. I had so much creative control, which I didn’t expect but truly appreciated. Jeff was the best. It was also awesome to collaborate with my body double, who had the same measurements as me, and who had my same hair. You really can’t tell who is who from the back. It was very surreal!


You acted with Jennifer Taylor in that movie. What did you learn from such an accomplished actor as Jennifer?

Oh my gosh, she is such a pro. It’s really cool to see someone like Jennifer work in such a way where there is no aura of ego around her. She was one of the crew – she learned everybody’s names, from the PAs to the sound guys to everyone in between. She didn’t come across as the star that she is, she just wanted to be a part something special. The way she fit in gave it a family feel. It really is rare to meet someone of her stature that behaves like that on a set. I learned from her just how to be. I just want to Jennifer Taylor. She is just amazing.

Lauren Swickard
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At one point you were going to be a ballerina.

Growing up in Cincinnati, my life was focused on one thing: Ballet, ballet, ballet. I was training with Russian coaches, coaches that were flying in from Europe, all of those sorts of things. I was definitely on track to become a professional ballerina, so I moved to New York City to dance with the School of American Ballet.


What changed your career trajectory?

I got injured while I was there and had to fill my days with other things, so I started taking an acting class. I was 14 at the time. I immediately fell in love with acting, and couldn’t imagine myself doing anything else. As if I needed any more convincing, my acting teacher said, “Ballerinas end their careers around the age of 35, but actors can act their whole lives.”

The more I got into acting, the more I learned that acting is a lot like ballet, but with words. It’s about emoting with every part of yourself, just like ballet. I really think that’s why it came so naturally to me. Ballet also played another important part in my acting career: If I hadn’t gone to New York for ballet, then I never would have been exposed to acting in the first place.


You wrote the script for A California Christmas. Please tell me about your passion for writing.

Oh my gosh, I wanted to be a writer long before I wanted to become an actress. I was writing my own novels from the time I was in middle school. I studied journalism at the Scripps School of Journalism at Ohio University. The plan was to complete my degree, but I ended up booking a pilot for CBS my first year of college, so I left college to do the pilot. Little did I know that pilots don’t always get picked up [laughs]. I was 18 years old, and I didn’t know how the acting world worked. I just took a leap of faith and plunged into the Hollywood pool headfirst. The screenwriting came later. Once I decided to start writing screenplays I said, “This is my second career. I’m going to work on it every day.” Every day, even if I’m just writing a scene or two, screenwriting is a part of my morning ritual. It’s such a muscle that you have to work on. So I write every day, and I love it.


You wore multiple hats on A California Christmas. Any desire to focus purely on acting in a future project?

Even though I loved to being a producer, writer, and actress on this project, it was a lot of work. I was acting in one of the lead roles, but I was also a producer, which meant I was constantly going over the scenes with the director. It was an endless stream of  “I don’t think this works. Do you think this approach works better instead? Should we change the way we handle that?” All while having to think about my character and the performance that I was trying to bring to the screen. Then, the scenes would change, and as a writer I would need to shift gears on the spot and say, “Hey guys, I think we’re going to change it to this, this and this instead of this.” I loved it, but it was definitely a lot on one plate.

So, to answer your question, I’m very excited to go into a project where I’m just the actress. I think it will feel great to count on the writer, director, and producer to do the things they need to do, while I get to focus on being an actress. Or, if it turns out another way, where I’m just the writer.


Let’s talk about your next project, Casa Grande

Casa Grande is a five-episode series that I created, and it is in production right now. The series follows several families in the farmland of Northern California as it navigates themes of class, immigration, culture and family. I think it’s my best work. I do have a team of writers, because this it is a series, so we are working together in a traditional writers room. Their names are Alex Ranarivelo and Michael Cruz, and they are amazing. The expertise that my team brings to this subject is so important, because of who I am and how I grew up. I knew that I needed to have a team around me that is an expert in this culture.

Lauren Swickard
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Where did the idea for Casa Grande come from?

I was actually inspired while we were filming A California Christmas. We were filming on a big dairy farm that actually sources its cheeses to Chipotle, a place where they have hundreds and hundreds of cows, milking machines, and large fields. We would go on the set every day, and I couldn’t help but notice all of the Hispanic workers who actually lived on the property. They would be awake and working long before we got there, and they would be working after we would leave at the end of the day. What I noticed about them was just the foundation of joy that they had – the way they talked and interacted with each other, and the way their kids ran around playing. Being from Cincinnati, I had never seen that culture up close. It piqued my curiosity. I started researching and interviewing these people to learn more about them, and that’s when the idea for Casa Grande hit. I gathered a team around me that could help put story and voices to these faces, and together we came up with the pilot. I pitched the pilot, and ESX Productions jumped on it.


Given the world we live in today, Casa Grande deals with some very timely issues.

The grand theme of this series is pulling back the curtain on how the machine works. The machine being the world that we all live in. I’m just so thankful for this team of people that I have around me, because without them we wouldn’t have been able to give this series correct voices. They are experts in the community, and we had people from the community on the project, so it’s true to what’s happening right now in the world. It’s so important for people to see it.


How does Lauren Swickard stay busy when there are lulls in her schedule?

If I encounter a lull in auditions or a lull in work, I always dive into an acting class. There are so many cool acting classes in town, and that’s the place where you can challenge yourself and practice your craft. If I’m not auditioning or acting, then a class offers an outlet that I have control over. When it comes to writing, I make time every day to get my ideas out there.

Lauren Swickard
Photo Courtesy Lauren Swickard

Final Question. If you had one piece of advice for other aspiring creatives, what would that be?

Whatever it is, just start doing it. Start producing your own projects, you’ll learn what to do along the way. It doesn’t matter what the finished product looks like, you just need the experience. The next thing you produce will be better because of what you’ve learned. If you aspire to write, just start writing. If your dream is to be an actor, jump in. Get involved with the local theatre. Take acting classes. Acting classes are great for so many reasons, including the ability to network with others with the same interests. There are colleges that have film schools, and there are students working on thesis projects who need actors. And don’t forget social media, YouTube, all of those sorts of things. You can do so much today that wasn’t available just a short time ago. Follow your passion and just start doing it.

Written By: Michael D. McClellan |

Psst. Nik Wallenda has a secret he wants to share. The record-setting daredevil, who has thrilled millions with his white-knuckle treks across the Grand Canyon, Niagara Falls, and – wait for it – an active volcano, found himself at a crossroads after an eight-person pyramid collapse injured five, including his sister, who ended up in a coma and had 73 screws and plates inserted into her face. Wallenda, who was anchoring that pyramid under the Circus Sarasota Big Top that winter afternoon in 2017, clung to the wire for dear life when the team’s practice stunt when horribly wrong. While he walked away without a scratch and stepped back onto the wire the next day, Wallenda wasn’t as unfazed by the accident as it seemed on the surface.


“I was battling fear,” says Wallenda, who dives deep into the traumatic event in his new book, ‘Facing Fear: Step Out in Faith and Rise Above What’s Holding You Back’ (Sept. 15/HarperCollins). “We were attempting to break a world record for the highest four-level, eight-person pyramid. After training for six weeks we brought it up to 30 feet above the ground. We were days before attempting it in front of a live audience and in front of Guinness, and then the collapse happened. I got back on the wire the next day, and performed for the next six weeks as if nothing were wrong. But then, when that contract ended, I had six weeks where I wasn’t performing. That’s when I realized that there was something different about me. I started experiencing fear. It was an entirely new emotion to me, and it became debilitating, to the point where I told my wife I was done.”

For Wallenda – a seventh-generation member of The Flying Wallendas family of aerialists – this was not only a stunning admission, but the first step in his journey to overcome fear and resume the death-defying feats that have captivated imaginations around the globe. And if you’re wondering whether Wallenda is fully healed, you need look no further than his March 4, 2020, walk across the heat-generating, gas-spewing Masaya Volcano in Nicaragua. Crossing the volcano’s active lava lake, Wallenda offered proof positive that he’s on top of his game.

“That walk was challenging in so many different ways,” he says. “Pulling it off wouldn’t have been possible if I hadn’t gone through the process of facing my fear and silencing the shame that came along with it. From that point I was able to work through my fear and resurrect my dreams of being a world-class aerialist.”

A holder of 11 Guinness World Records, Wallenda has more than lived up to the legacy created by his great-grandfather Karl, who brought the family to the United States in the 1920s and immediately started thrilling young and old alike.

Nik Wallenda – Photo Courtesy Rogers & Cowan PMK

“I’m very proud of our family’s place in history,” Wallenda says, “and I’m proud to do my part to carry on the tradition, even though my mom and dad tried to push me away from the industry. They didn’t want me to carry it on because of the struggles of the circus world. My great-grandfather said it best in the 1970s: ‘In this business, one day you eat the chicken. The next day you eat the feathers.’ I totally get that now. This is a very fickle, very feast-or-famine business.”

Crossing Niagara Falls into Canada on June 12, 2012, Wallenda made history of his own: Enigma Research estimates that one billion people had either seen or knew of Wallenda’s Niagara Falls walk. The event was ABC’s highest rated Friday night program since November 2007, and the highest non-sports summertime program on any of the major networks in six years. A year later, Wallenda upped the ante with a riveting walk across the Grand Canyon, completing the 1,400 foot walk in 22 minutes, 54 seconds, using a 2-inch-thick steel cable.

Nik Wallenda crosses the Grand Canyon
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Wallenda has built quite the resumé by defying convention. He’s crossed the Chicago and New York City skylines on a high-wire; he’s hung from his teeth 250 feet above the ground as part of a helicopter stunt in Branson, Missouri; and he’s crossed between the two towers of the ten-story Condado Plaza Hotel in San Juan, Puerto Rico, recreating the very act that had killed his great-grandfather Karl Wallenda in 1978. None of it possible without a healthy approach to managing his fear.

“I’m human, just like everyone else,” he says. “Fear is something we all have to overcome. I hope this book helps others take what I’ve learned and apply it to their everyday lives.”

The Wallenda name is synonymous with thrill seeking. We’re talking hundreds of years!

My family started performing in the 1780s in Bohemia, eventually making their way to Europe and into Germany, and then on into the United States in the 1920s. We’ve been at it for quite a long time, that’s for sure!


How did your family end up in the U.S.?

In 1927 they performed in Havana, Cuba. John Ringling, who was based in Florida, heard of this amazing high-wire troupe that he had to go see with his own eyes. So, he got on a ship and went over to Cuba to watch the show that my family was headlining. When the show’s owner caught wind that John Ringling was in the crowd, he went to my great-grandfather and said, “You guys have the night off tonight.” This didn’t make sense, especially since it was a packed house and everybody was there to see them. Long story short, the show’s owner knew that John Ringling would like what he saw, and that he would immediately poach my family and bring them to the United States. Well, John Ringling was a smart man, and he knew that there was a reason my family was pulled from the show. I’m sure it had happened to him many times before during his lifetime. So he sneaked back in the following day, saw my family perform, and immediately signed them as part of the “The Greatest Show on Earth” with Ringling Brothers. The next year, in 1928, they made their way to the United States, and my family headlined at Ringling Brothers for about 17 years.

Karl Wallenda

Was that when the press starting calling your family The Flying Wallendas?

It was around the time that my great-grandfather went out on his own, opening his own show in the 1940s. In 1947 he created the famous seven-person pyramid, and performed that until about 1962. That’s when they had that tragic accident in Detroit, Michigan. A couple of my family members were killed, and an uncle was paralyzed from the waist down. My great-grandfather sneaked out of the hospital the next day against the doctor’s orders, just to get back on the wire. It was an example of him living by the family legacy, and the now famous words, “The show must go on.” That’s something I still believe in, although I use the words “Never give up.” In fact, that’s how I sign every autograph.


Your great-grandfather was the legendary Karl Wallenda. He was about as fearless as they come.

Yes, he was fearless in many ways. He went on to create these amazing pyramids performed all over the world, and he walked the wire into his 70s. He walked across Veterans Stadium in Philadelphia with 30,000 people looking on, open-mouthed, and he walked it in places like Tallulah Gorge, Georgia, on a wire 1,000 feet across and 750 feet above the ground. He was 65 at the time, and his wife handed him a martini when he reached the other side – but not before he’d stopping midway to do a couple of handstands, one in honor of our soldiers in Vietnam, and another for laughs, so he was definitely a showman with a flair for the dramatic.

My great-grandfather eventually made his way to San Juan, Puerto Rico, where my family was headlining on a show that wasn’t selling many tickets. He decided to do a walk between two skyscrapers at the Condado Plaza Hotel to help promote show. He was 73 years old at the time. He got on that wire unaware that it had been rigged unstable; the guys who rigged it weren’t part of his normal team that included my uncle, who was performing elsewhere, and my father, who was home because my mother had just suffered a miscarriage. Long story short, because of the high winds and the improperly secured wire, he lost his balance, fell, and lost his life. That was in 1978, Less than a year later I was born, and that was the legacy that I inherited.

Nik Wallenda – Photo Courtesy Nik Wallenda

Karl Wallenda’s best friend was none other than Evel Knievel.

Yes, they were very close friends. They both shared the same passion for entertainment, and also for pushing the limits. It’s just like me being friends with David Blaine, Chris Angel, and many of the other daredevils today. I think because there’s not a lot of us, and because we are all part of the same small community, that a natural closeness develops. It was the same with my great-grandfather. He and Evel Knievel spent a lot of time together during their lifetimes. They respected each other a great deal. In fact, when Evel Knievel attempted his big jump in that rocket over the Snake River Canyon, he recruited my family to open for him. If you look at the ticket stubs you’ll see the Wallenda name right there. So they were close. They performed a lot and spent quite a bit of time together.


When did you start walking the wire?

My mom was six months pregnant with me and still walking on the wire, so I’ve been walking on a wire longer than my feet have been on terra firma [laughs]. As soon as I could stand up, they had me on a wire a couple of feet off the ground. Not on my own, obviously; my mom or my dad would grab my hand and sort of walk me back and forth. I have photos of me walking on a wire at 18 months old. My great-grandfather really said it best in the book that he wrote in the 1970s. He said, “Life is on the wire, and everything else is just waiting.” That is very true. For my family it is a very literal expression, but the reality of the situation is that everybody is on a wire. That’s one of the reasons that I wrote this book, because everybody is on a wire and everybody’s trying to get to the other side. My family just does it in a literal sense: Even though there are gases in the volcano, or heavy winds in the Grand Canyon, or heavy mists at Niagara Falls, we are still going to face our fears and make it across to the other side.

Nik Wallenda

In 2013 you performed that heart-stopping wire walk over the Grand Canyon with millions watching on TV.

Very early on, it was a dream of mine to walk across the Grand Canyon. In fact, I was making plans to walk across the Grand Canyon well before I sought permission to cross Niagara Falls. It was a long and tedious process of just figuring out where in the canyon I could walk. And then there was the engineering involved, which was just as much of a challenge as actually getting on that wire and walking it.


How did you train for that walk?

I trained with wind machines creating gusts of up to 90 mph. We knew that the winds were not going to exceed 50 mph, so training at 90 mph really helped me prepare both physically and mentally. I did have to endure a couple of 43-mph gusts while I was out there the day of the walk, so it did get fairly windy. What I learned from walking the Grand Canyon is that you can never train enough. I remember being out in the middle of the canyon and thinking that, even though I’d trained in 90-mph winds, I wish I had trained at 120-mph winds. When you’re in the real setting, you’re much better of mentally, emotionally, and physically if your preparation has gone above and beyond. Thankfully everything worked out. The result was a dream come true. It was an extremely successful TV special. In fact, my Grand Canyon walk still remains the highest-rated special in the history of the Discovery Channel, which is the largest network in the world. It was a huge success, and it opened a lot of doors.

Nik Wallenda speaks at a press conference in Chicago after successfully walking the wire across the Chicago River, Sunday November 2, 2014.
Jessica Koscielniak / Sun-Times, File

How do you cross the Grand Canyon on a wire, with no harness, and keep calm?

A lot of it is the power of our mind – where we allow our mind to go, and what energy we give our thoughts. I am a believer, so I give all of my thoughts to God. There are so many times in life where my mind will want to go to a negative spot. The Grand Canyon is a perfect example. When I got hit with those 43-mph winds, my mind naturally wanted to freak out. I was then able to counter that negative thought with the fact that I had trained and prepared for that moment. Everything was going to be okay. I’d practiced walking in 90-mph wind gusts. I’m going to be okay. So I sort of talked myself down, and before you know it, my heartrate dropped down to a normal level.


Your new book is titled Facing Fear.

In some ways, I guess I never realized what fear was because I was raised to be fearless. The reason I wrote the book was because of that 2017 eight-person pyramid fall while training in Sarasota, and the fear that I experienced after that. The book talks in depth about the process that I went through to overcome fear after that terrible accident.


How do you deal with fear after something like that pyramid collapse?

After that accident, I started to experience fear to the point where it became debilitating. I actually thought I was done walking the wire. I remember that crucial conversation with my wife, where she said, “Look, I support you, but the family lives by the words ‘the show must go on.’ You do what you do to inspire people. I think you may need to dig a little deeper.” Well, that really set me off on a faith journey, one that was about finding out who I was, and then realizing that, yes, fear was a part of it, and that the seed had been planted during that accident. Reality of what happened that day hit me – I’d almost lost my sister. She was torn up and in a coma, and had 73 screws and plates in her face alone. And even though I got back on that wire the next day, I came to the realization that I was avoiding a very essential fact: Despite what I might have looked like on the outside, I was running from fear rather than dealing with it.

Acrobat siblings Nik and Lijana Wallenda prepare to attempt a highwire stunt in the middle of Times Square in New York City.

Is it fair to say that you were in denial of that fear?

That’s very true. My pastor recommended seeing this amazing Christian psychologist in town. After spending an hour with her I remember saying, “I’m fine. I got back on the wire right away. I don’t need to talk to anybody.” She challenged me and said, “You’ve got to deal with it. You have to learn about your fear, but before you can do that you’ve got to acknowledge that the fear is real in your life. And then once you do that, then you can deal with the shame.” And I think that’s when it hit me. I was ashamed of the fact that here I was, Nik Wallenda – entertainer, daredevil, risk taker – and I’m supposed to be fearless…but I’m really not. I’m human. I’m real. I experience fear like anyone else. I had to work through all of those steps in order to work my way to that shame. Only then was I able to face the fear, deal with the fear, and then overcome that fear.

The book applies to my personal struggle with fear, but it is really written for people who are dealing with fear in their everyday lives. For example, I talk to people all the time who are miserable every day when they go to work. They do it because there is a paycheck on Friday and it covers the mortgage, but they really have dreams of a different occupation. Fear is preventing them from pursuing their dreams. What happens as a result? They prefer the status quo. They settle. I wrote this book because I wanted to inspire them. “Yes, you’re in a job that you don’t like. You have to be smart – you don’t want to walk away from your job without a plan, but you can take action and prepare for the job you really want.” My hopes are that people reading this book will use the lessons that I had to go through and apply it to real world situations in their own lives. If so, then they might not have to go as deep down in the valley as I did before reaching the mountaintop.


You mentioned preparation. That seems to be a key ingredient to conquering fear.

The amount of preparation that goes into what I do is incredible. Just to give you an example, my latest TV special was on ABC, where I walked over an active volcano – the Masaya Volcano, near Managua, Nicaragua. We studied volcanoes for four years as a team just to prepare for this event. We wanted to know the effects not only on the equipment, but also on the individuals who would be closest to volcano. We also worked with many volcanologists to understand this unpredictable environment as best we could, and then developed a training regimen based upon that science.


How do you train to walk across an active volcano?

We knew that I was going to have to wear a gas mask for this walk, and the science told us that wearing a gas mask would deprive my brain of oxygen. Actually, a gas mask can drop your oxygen level anywhere between 15-to-30%. So I trained on a wire that was the same length as what I would walk over the volcano, and I wore an oxygen deprivation mask that would cut my oxygen levels all the way down to 30%. That way, I was only breathing 30% oxygen during my practice walks. The logic being, if I could perform a walk with my oxygen level that low, then performing the walk at 70% oxygen was going to much easier.

The gases were a challenge in other ways. In fact, the gases were much stronger than anyone anticipated, including my team that had done all of the studies. There was a high degree of variability with this environment. We installed safety cables in that volcano crater that lasted two months before failure, and then we had some that started failing after 10 days. That’s because conditions inside a volcano change almost daily. Gas levels can be thicker from one day to the next, from one week to the next, so it was hard to predict what window we were going to be in. I not only trained with goggles to protect my eyes from the sulfuric gases, but I trained with goggles that were fogged up on purpose, so that I literally could not see through them. I wore special suits designed to keep me hot, so that my body would be prepared for the heat. I walked with weighted vests and also with the extra weight of an oxygen tank, in case the gases got so bad and that I needed oxygen. I walked the wire like this forwards and backwards, sometimes six times per training session. Oftentimes I’d practice with all of this gear on, walking a mile-and-a-half without stopping. That way I could prepare for those worst cases, so that when I am faced with them I’ve already been in much more difficult situations. It’s similar to somebody who is about to speak in front of a large group. The more you practice, the more comfortable you get. And the more comfortable you get, the better the chances of delivering a better message.

Mr. T(L) and Nik Wallenda attend Mr. T And Nik Wallenda Celebrate National Amazing Month.

Does this training also help your concentration?

Yes, absolutely. A lot of training is about not being distracted. That was especially true for my walk over Times Square. There’s no greater distraction than all of those giant LED screens, people, taxis, and noise that you have going on in Times Square. So yeah, concentration is a huge part of it – training to not be distracted, and to stay focused. To be honest with you, I have a little bit of ADHD. My mind is everywhere sometimes. But when I’m on the wire, that’s the one place where I feel like I can stay extremely focused.


Let’s talk Niagara Falls. More than a hundred thousand in attendance, and millions watching on TV.

Niagara Falls took changing 100-year-old laws in two countries in order to get permission to walk over, so just the political part of that event was an overwhelming, monumental task. Then there was the training and the actual walk itself, followed by the network coming in last-minute and ordering me to wear a tether. That was something that I’d never done before. It’s like telling Tiger Woods that he’s got to use a specially weighted golf club instead of his trusty driver just before he tees off in a major. It’s going to throw him off because it’s different. It’s unique. And here I was, risking my life while people watching thought that the tether was going to save me. While that is true in in the purest sense, the reality is that a tether presented a risk as well. A tether could have caused me to fall. I could have gotten tangled up in it. The reality is, I’d trained for this walk without a safety. It was an extremely uncomfortable change, especially in a situation where I had never done it before and didn’t get to train with it on. But the network made the decision 10 days before the walk, and they were determined that I had to wear it. It was nonnegotiable.

Nik Wallenda edges his way along the tightrope above Niagara Falls (Image: Reuters)

What was the diameter of the wire you walked on?

I walked on a cable that was 2-inches in diameter, which was also different for me. My entire life, I had walked on a 5/8-inch wire rope, which is what I’m comfortable with to be honest with you. If someone came to me and said, “Do you want a 3-inch wire rope, 2-inch wire rope, or a 1-inch wire rope?” I would choose a 5/8-inch roped every time. It’s much smaller, obviously, but it’s where I feel at home.


What role does creativity play in preparing to walk something like Niagara Falls?

Creativity is a huge element. We actually brought in airboats to create strong winds, as well as fire trucks to simulate the heavy mist created by Niagara Falls. It’s really hard to simulate real world settings, but I have a great team of engineers and family members that are extremely creative.

A lot of my walks are creative in the sense that we are doing things never done before. There were many, many unique challenges like that when it came to walking over Niagara Falls. For example, we had these pendulum-type weights installed to keep the wire from twisting. What we learned at Niagara Falls, we took with us to help make the Grand Canyon walk a little bit safer. Then we took what we learned from the Grand Canyon experience and applied it to the volcano walk. So, we’re always learning, always pushing, and always being creative in our work.

Lijana Wallenda and Nik Wallenda walk a high wire over Times Square during the Highwire Live In Times Square With Nik Wallenda on June 23, 2019, in New York City.
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Your faith is an important part of your identity. When you walked the Grand Canyon, you could be heard trusting each step to Jesus. How you use your faith to inspire and motivate others?

My faith is just like my wire walking. It’s who I am. I gave my life to Christ at three years old, so it’s really all I’ve ever known. I’m not preaching when I’m out there on the wire. When I’m on TV, I’m living my life. I think that’s why mainstream media respects it so much. There are no demands on our part to have the microphones on while I’m walking that wire. The networks could turn it off if they want, but they choose instead to keep it on. I think people respect that I’m not out there trying to change someone’s life or belief system. It’s just me being real, and that is what helps keep me calm. People are awestricken by the fact that I can stay that calm in those settings, but the Bible talks about a peace that passes all understanding. That is where I get my peace. If people’s lives are encouraged, inspired, or brought the faith because of that, then that’s me fulfilling my calling. Otherwise I just live my life by example, which is what the Bible calls us to do – to be Christlike. I don’t always succeed, but I try.


What have you been doing to stay relevant during the COVID-19 pandemic?

We opened up the drive-in thrill show, which has been a huge success. We’ve played a month now in two different cities, and have basically invited a bunch of my daredevil friends to perform with me. This is something we normally can’t do, because everyone is always booked up and performing elsewhere, but coronavirus changed all of that. So I called everyone up and said, “Hey let’s all get together and put on this awesome show.” People can drive onto a lot in their car, and the action takes place high above the ground. You can watch from the inside of your car, or the front of your car, and you can tune in to our radio station and see a great show. I speak from the wire for about 20 minutes, and use that time to hopefully motivate and encourage people during these crazy times.

PASADENA, CALIFORNIA – JANUARY 08: Nik Wallenda (L) and Erendira Wallenda attend ABC Television’s Winter Press Tour 2020 held at The Langham Huntington, Pasadena on January 08, 2020 in Pasadena, California.
(Photo by Michael Tran/FilmMagic)

Final Question:  If you could offer one piece of advice to inspire and motivate others, what would that be?

I would tell you that God has blessed us all with powerful minds. We have the ability to control what we allow into our minds, and also what we allow out. We have the power to filter out the negative thoughts and replace these with positives. If I am on the wire and get hit with 43-mph winds, I can immediately counter that with the thought that I trained in 90. It is definitely something that you have to practice. Fear can overtake us. Fear can debilitate us. Or, if we learn to face our fear, it can empower us.